Sunday, April 16, 2006
reading wads the past..yet not reliving it..lets not make wrong decisions anymore...
let this time be forever...
0nce up0n a time... i believed.
|5:05 PM|
Thursday, April 06, 2006
I need you more than I thought would. I love you more than I thought I do. It was my mistake. My fault. I finally understood the phrase, don live wif some1 you can live wif. Live wif some1 you can't live without. |
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0nce up0n a time... i believed.
|7:04 PM|
Monday, September 12, 2005
Ya... so this is it.. 12 sep... 1 last day... Thanks.. for the present.. for the song u wrote for me... so touching... that my tears flow infront of u... of all the 8 months plus we're together... the happy moments brought me tears... & the arguements... made me smile... Maybe... ze bu shi tong hua gu shi gai you de jie ju ... dan.. ta shi ge mei li de gu shi... I have seen u tried ur very best not to make me upset... Try ur best to put that smile on my face... & to make sure, this was a happy ending for me... Thank you so much... wo men chang shou... bu su yu tong ge shi jie de ren... bu ying gai zai yi qi... ke shi... wo ren wei... is the problem of timing... Ppl bet... how long will we last? how fast will we patch back.. wo bu si guan shen bian shao le nii... but... I don want history to repeat itself.. so if we'll patch, I guess it's at least 3 yrs down the road.. when u have ur freedom... wo bu si guan, dan wo hui xue... nii ne? wo shou guo, cheng jing yong you jiu guo le... tian chang ti jiu, you ru he? shou yi, dear... Nii ying ding ding yao kuai le... nii shou guo... wei le wo, yao bei ban shi jie, nii duo yuan yi... zi yao wo kuai le.. shou yi, wei le wo, kuai le... hao ma? fa zhi xing li de kuai le... There it is.. wo men de tong hua... From 3rd jan to 12th sep... mei li de hui yi... rang wo men yong yuan yong yuan fang zai xing li... 8 yrs later.. no1 can predict... & so... let's leave it... we'll see.. wouldn't we? & we'll keep this blog... as bro & sis... hmm? I love you... today as ur dear... & tomorrow onwards, as ur sis, ur best friend... muackz... yao yong gan... yao kuai le... Yi qi fei... hao ma?
0nce up0n a time... i believed.
|8:47 PM|
might this be the final
this may be the last time ill post here...or i may continue if you too...haha...we got each other the same thing...i knew it actually...if you have to do it every day...there is not much else right?you wrote much more than me...mine was shorter...i like it very much...and ill treasure it...took me some time to think where to keep it...haha...decided to keep it in computer games box...up high on the shelf...cant be seen...dun tink she will go find out...or ill think of a better place to keep it safe from others ba...haha...yes...today is the 12 of sept...people dun have to remind me...hah...i know it will be the day we break...is it so amzing or exciting?cus it isint to me...or to you i know...but nvm...i guess i can jus shrug it away...will you still feel anything for me after we break?will you love me not as your friend or your bro..but as someone you wana be with for your life?if you dun its ok...i will...i will still love you...dun have to feel guilty or wad...i know your heart is in bit and pieces...some might never belong to me...find it back all together someday ba...wo zhen de yao zou le...dan qi shi hai zai ni shen bian...although these days are very painful...you were beside me to comfort me and wipe my tears away...thk you...it has been an unforgettable 8 months with you...that you have gave me love and care...wo hui xiang nian ni de wen rou...ni de tian mi...wo xu yao ni tie jing wo...yao ni aii wo...dan wu suo wei le ba...ni bu neng de hua...wo xiang wo zhi hao xue...heres a happy ending...for you dear...
wo aii ni.jie shu le.
fei ba.kuai le ba.
zai xing zhong zao xun ni dui wo de aii.xaing zhe ni de yong bao.
0nce up0n a time... i believed.
|8:14 PM|
Friday, September 09, 2005
i believe...i know you still love me...that tiny bit...i duno if i should be happy...or sad...i cant stop dropping tears when i held your hand that way...yes i clearly understand wad does it mean...it means that we will break...in my mind i thought...wad else can i do??i can only try wadever there is...so i tried...you cried...me too...we jus held each other and dry one anothers tears...i duno how to control...they jus kept falling and falling...im not a guy...haha...i shivered in pain...i jus wana look at you...hold you...its...unbearable pain...3 days...this time its real...and i duno how to make myself any better...you have been coaxing me now for say days...wad you said...i believe...i know this is you...and you are better this way...am i the one for your life...i duno...its jus a dream i have...the one i have the strongest desire to fulfill...wo aii ni aii de tai shen...zhe shi ni de shen huo...ni nie jiu wei he...ge ren you ge ren de shen huo...wo wu fa rang ni de shen huo jing cai...kuai le...ye zhi hao li kai...maybe someone might give you the everlasting love...i jus someone who had to learn wads love from you...maybe you tink its not true love...maybe you do...all i feel cannot be jus expressed by words...i can write on forever...i can give you sugar all you wan...but i mean wad i write...thats important...zhe ci zhen de...yao fen shou le...bu zai shi jia de...literally...its a pain that tears me from the inside....maybe you feel the same too...but no matter how pain it is...i have to take it...cus there is no looking back...
my life may be lonely from then on...
but im willing to trade it for you to have a happier and exciting life onwards...
qian jing ba....dear...
0nce up0n a time... i believed.
|8:56 PM|
Juz came back from the hotel today.. was so bloody tired... Reached home shower le then immediately slp liao.. hehe... so shiok... but my mummy come wake me up -.-"... so ya... 3 more days... I'm lost for words now... earlier in the week... we had so called a talk... You believe me right? If I wanna lie to you I wouldn't tell you all that... It's juz.. some feelings... But they are feelings... I'm so tired.. a breakaway... Last night... You interlock my hand wif yours... To us.. interlocking nv meant to be forever... You know the reason behind it... so we nv ever interlock when holding hands... But last night wen u did... u made my tears flow... no dear.. it's not these little things that cause us to break... If it is.. we can easily change it.. but it's not... The difference in us... makes or breaks us... maybe it's the problem of timing... It breaks us now... I want a life full of excitement... full of adventures, fun, freedom... But you want a much more stable & peaceful life... It's hard huh? You asked me how I felt about breaking up... Of coz.. 8 months... all the good times.. all the 1st times.. all the arguements... when I think back... tears come.. The doggy u give me for 5th month? It'll stay wif me.. for as long as possible... so long as it's not torn... I'll keep it.. I've gotten so use to having it beside me everynight... I know... comforting words are juz words.. no matter how much I say... It's up to you... It's ur life.. It's how u run it... so... don think of how your life will be without me... Becoz it's a beginning of another new chapter... ya?
Dang gu shi jie su zi huo, xing ye xi huan yi ge ren ji mo...
nii xiang xing wo aii nii ye hao... Bu xiang xing ye hao... aii, shi shao le... dan chun zai...
Muacks...
0nce up0n a time... i believed.
|8:20 PM|
Saturday, September 03, 2005
Hihi dear... yupz... happy 8th months... This is the last anniversary we'll spend together... 9 more days.. That's all... Thx for being wif me today... & thx for the past 8 months... This is enough for me.. really... I'm not that greedy to wanna cage you like ur mum... I want u to fly... don leave ur wings behind wif me... The Earth still moves... everything's gonna be the same... I believe there's no1 in this world u can't live without... You asked me... That... Previously... Did I love or liked him... Wad's the answer I don even know... wad is love? I always ask... but no1 knows... It's a sudden chemistry... It comes.. & it goes.. I came in ur life to teach & learn from you... I taught u wad u've nv been through before... & I know... I taught u how to endure pain... sry... I learnt that love isn't a game... at least to some ppl... I have always thought, love was a game... wif many players... But u taught me... That love does exist... Not juz motherly love, not juz brotherhood love... But ya.. some1 who use to be a stranger to me... can love me... wif all his heart... & I know... It's my fault I donno how to treasure... Maybe someday, when u're holding some1 else's hand... I might regret my decision of letting you go... But... I believe wadever I've decided... I should do it & don look back... coz like you say... I've always followed my heart... I did in the past, I'm going to do it now, & I will too in the future... I don wanna think about how will it be in the future... I don even wanna talk about it.. I juz wanna... let it be... why should life be so complicated I ask... Now I know... a plain & simple life, is boring & not at all interesting... complication are juz adding some spice into our lives... wadever is going to happen... don worry... believe me... everything happens for a reason... k? now smile ;)
Love love, thx for everything & everything...
muacks.. always look on th bright side of life? :)
0nce up0n a time... i believed.
|9:48 PM|
since the 12 of july...we have not been posting much...due to school ba...quite busy...or maybe feelings...for school...ya...we got back our results...im really happy to see you improve...its 1 of your best since the first day iv met you...not insulting you la...but you dint do so well in the past...glad to see for once...you have gotten marks that you work hard for...me too...im quite glad with mine...good improvement since the day we started...33th to 22nd...haha...not bad la hor...oh well...when i saw this...actually...i dun wan this to be the case in o' levels...i duno if im hoping for something impossible...but i wana see you throughout 8 years if it takes that long...i wana be there watching over you...but i know its quite impossible...huh...its alright...anyway i have to do better than this anyway...the expectations of my cage master is higher...i have to work hard always...you too k dear...i wont be the one to ask you to work hard anymore...but you have to know yourself...today shall be our 8th month anni...and the last anniversary ill have with you...went out with you today...fairly glad to be with you on a sat...i know i always cant...hows today?ok la hmm...hhaha...i dun wana tink much...i dun wana get emmotional...only at night i let myself be...hotel comin...hope it will be nice...a sweet memory for me to look back...and also you...you are all my firsts...i hope you to be my last...
wo xiang aii ni yi bei zi...
xiang yao ni aii wo yi bei zi....
dan yi qie dou shi yuan fen...
0nce up0n a time... i believed.
|9:35 PM|
Sunday, August 28, 2005
hey dear...you sound all bored now...like no life lidat...still keep saying no....haha...ya yesterday i was busy...whole day...morning went to nic's house to cut hair...later you say i kuku...i tink it sucks...haha...make me look like i no hair...nvm...mine grow back super fast de...after that around noon le...went home not for long have to go to cousin house le...then go for dinner to celebrate ah ma's bday...its buffet...and i ate damn alot...haha...its like...eat...stop...eat...stop...lidat can keep going on lo...tink i finished duno how much food...it was nice la...and i need to be fatter anyway...right?haha...since so long ago you said i need to be fatter to look nicer...anyway...after that damn long dinner...went to cousin house to blow bday cake...ah ma should be very happy...all her children are quite successful...and all treat her so well...77 years old le...i wonder if i can live that long...best is with you...wo xiang kan zhe ni...he ni huo dao lao...zhi dao wo jian dao ni de zhou wen...you mus be tinking i duno you post...haha...i know de la...i can sense...last last night fun huh?haha...you sound that way huh....all boys will faint...so ****...haha...cheer up...dint had much fun ysterday hmm?hope monday will be a day full of fun...hahaha...??wad am i saying?hahaha...hao le ba..dear...wo ye mei shem mo dan xing...wo zhe pa ni hui shang xing...this time is for real...and its abit unreal to me...but nvm...mucks...wo hai hui aii zhe ni
0nce up0n a time... i believed.
|3:23 PM|
Saturday, August 27, 2005
Hao la hao la... I'm so bored! So I'll post... you ah... Don care u later... I slp 1st! hrump.. I'm guai today u know? I didn't buy anything lor... coz like I got everything liao... sl they all ask wad I want for my birthday... But cannot say clothes, skirts, bags, shoes... coz I got too many of those... But I want bag! they don wanna buy... hrump... Then wad? I got everything liao ma.. so bad de leh they all... I'm also not craving for mp3... Stupid elaine say birthday cake... hahax.. But I also got liao! aiya... hao la.. enough of talking to myself... so ya.. didn't spend much time wif ya today... even if I wanna spend time wif u, You also don have time for me.. ya.. so.. er.. hahax... yesterday's stuff... Juz forget about it la.. stupid... hahax... Last night was fun man! hahax... I can imagine... hahax... sian.. so I've been working on my "something" everyday... are you? hahax... wad is urs huh? so secretive de... cannot even tell me u got do or nv do... hmm... hao la hao la.. since u say surprise then I'll stop asking le la... don worry about me la ok? all these problems.. i can handle la.. no big deal.. ru gou yan lei bu xiao xing hua gou zhui jiao, jiu yong nii wo gou de shou mo diao... shou yi, bie dan xing... Life can't that perfect for every1... hafta face some ups and downs... hao la.. I've nothing more to write...
wo hao xiang nii.. nii zhe ge huai ren... hehe... muacks.. love ya dar...
0nce up0n a time... i believed.
|10:11 PM|
